Opening Night at Leeds Degree Show 2013
The begendings, and what I'm currently facing with my time at Uni is, as you have probably guessed, the beginning of the end. That moment when walking the same route that you have done a million times for the past three years, you suddenly become aware that there is a limited amount of times left that you will have to. I find myself walking through campus staring up at the big old beautiful buildings as if in a cliched movie, in complete naive surprise that I hadn't noticed how impressive they were and how lucky I was to be part of such a good University. I kind of like that feeling, the hazy joy of 'I enjoyed this chapter of my life.' But then the What Next sets in. It is the question on every to be graduates lips, and what we constantly ask each other warily '...so what are you doing next year?' and the panic of not quite knowing what to reply. All my plans are a little up in the air at the moment, with a very last minute PGCE interview for Birmingham next month and the possibility of living at home or in Leeds, and it would be very easy to fall into panic mode.
To combat 'the fear' I've been trying to come up with strategies to keep calm and keep focus on the future, when finishing a chapter of my life.
1. Start a new job. I recently left my awful bar job for another not so awful bar job. The people are lovely and it leaves me with something to come back to in September if I choose to be in Leeds.
2. Start a new project. Or a blog! My use of resin in my work has meant that i've become really interested in resin jewellery, so I am making plans to create some resin pieces. Not only this but I've also started a collaboration with a singer/songwriter to create a drawing everyday to one of his song titles, let's hope I can keep up!
3. Plan all of the things. Book some gigs, buy festival tickets. Plan a date night with your partner, or a meal with family or friends. Go traveling! Keep your calendar busy and you'll start to fill the empty gaps that were usually jammed full of the chapter you've finished. Plan a holiday, you probably deserve/need one.
4. Don't set your expectations of yourself too high. If like me you've just finished Uni, it's really easy to feel like you desperately need to be on the path to your career now and if you're not you're a failure. WRONG you've just finished something major, you can allow for a month, six months, a year or even longer. If you've not sorted out your ideal job yet, stick with a part time one and if you can, get some experience in you're prospective field.
I feel like the biggest hypocrite ever for writing this, let's hope I can take my own advice!
Close-up of my piece 'Lists'
A much more exciting countdown.